singing......

First of all.. i think i am a bit over enthusiastic to have 2 entries in a day..!I doubt if i'll be able to keep up like this later but tonight  i feel that i am compelled to engrave so. Its 10:22 pm by my watch now.I am back from the routine Bial Zaipawl choir practice..Ya ya  to those who know me so well, im as surprised as you are when i was given the appointment..I, of all the young girls in my locality, Kulikawn,am the most unlikely person in the whole wide world to be given the position.Its not strange to see people come up to me and say"How come??" and "were u ever good in singing?". i always answer them short and clearly.."No i am not good in singing" or "Ya, i find it strange too".


My parents in fact are the most surprised ones..Yet i am in the choir..Though it may sound very cliche' but its none other than God's plan,mysterious as it is, to work His way into my life through this prestiged opportunity..I am not going to ramble about how i manage to cope with the pressure and expectations because that itself is one lengthy testimony..


My sincere wish is to share to you,that one should never ever restrain oneself to shout(yes shout!!)out for his glory.I was never a good singer even when i was young but i remembered putting my best efforts during Naupang Inkhawmpui (Sunday school conventions??) But adolescence suppressed the efforts because i was afraid my voice would break and thus i end up with a voice as worthless as it is now..


I regret having suppressed,and being ashamed of my voice when it was way clearer than it is now..if only i had sung to my hearts content then..if only i had exercised my vocal chords growing up, i wouldn't have felt so insatiable now..And so i learned never to be ashamed of what i have been blessed with.Like the Gospel Hymn says.."O for a thousand tongues to sing, My great redeemers praise"..Even if i have the most melodious of voices, the most powerful voice on Earth, i still wouldn't be able to sing and convey the glories of His name, the wonders of His ways and the magnitude of His love...


But for all that he has done for me.. i cannot go any other way but bellow out His praise inspite of all the inabilities in me!!